I have finally been diagnosed with bi polar mood disorder, complex PTSD, severe anxiety and severe depression. My psychiatrist is also looking into schizoaffective disorder (not sure on spelling) and personality disorder.

I am on a routine of meds which is breakfast, lunch, dinner and bedtime. In total I am on 15 & 1/2 tablets a day. I see her weekly and it is helping alot, but in saying that it is so over whelming too.

I think I was hoping for a quick fix and i could just be fixed with one tablet and a little therapy. So I was disheartened in a way, I guess. I had a bit of a break down.

I am just so so tired, I feel like I have never slept or relaxed and I’m always on edge. I just want to be normal, what is normal????

This shit is hard work…